Soccer

Kit played his first soccer game. I think the grown ups were more excited than he was - until we got there. He had a ball. Hannah just wanted to have a go - she kept saying 'Hannah's turn' and tried running onto the field a couple of times - I was so relieved when her best friend (R aged 12) arrived to play with her and distract her. I think she has enough on her plate at the moment - and I really don't think she'd be able to cope for more than a few weeks in a mainstream soccer team. In some ways it breaks my heart - but in others while I HATE seeing her upset - it didn't worry me as much as I might have thought - she has lots of opportunities in mainstream settings. She also has Rainbow Club - a swimming programme for people with disabilities which she loves. This is Kit's activity. Everyone was there to cheer him on - his grandparents and our close friends who live around the corner (parents of the gorgeous R girl). Still one day - if Hannah is old enough, still interested and it is local enough - a mixed or special needs soccer club/team would be fantastic!
All of which depends on the interpretation of todays spine xrays - I haven't talked with Hannah's paed about the results yet - but when I said I wanted them because her school does gymnastics this term - and I made a comment like 'she is very flexible' (as a positive for gym) the person doing the xray said something like 'well her neck is certainly flexible' - I'm pretty sure that isn't a good thing. Will have to post her xrays to the paed and see what he makes of it all.

If I wan't so tired - I'd have taken photoes of my house - to go with this next bit... It looks great! I spent ALL day Sunday organising the twins room - organising their toys into some semblance of useable tidy play area is no mean feat. They have 2 small IKEA hanging wardrobes - they need a 2m X 2m cube affair which they don't have. Then today I cleaned the back deck and mowed the grass. R came over so together we all made chocolate muffins with chocolate grenache icing - delicious - and thent he kids played together. I also mopped the floors and moved Hannah's magnificant dollhouse out into the living area. I feel so nervous! Tomorrow is Hannah's first 'playdate' with a regular little girl from school (not saying that her other 'playdates' weren't worthy - but they weren't/aren't nervewracking - cos we all know each other quite well and I know where their parents are coming from too). This little girl is a bright one who likes Kit too. She is a 'mama bear' about Hannah and so I am hoping that this will give the two girls an opportunity to get into a 'groove' of playing together. Her mum seems really nice - well obviously she is - cos she has clearly supported her daughter's interest in befriending Han. I mentioned towards the end of term how I thought it would be good for Hannah to play with other kids - in her own home - as there she has 'girly toys' etc while at shcool from what i have seen she tends to mimic her brother's 'boy superhero' flapping arms thing which is a bit offputting for most other girls. I said it would be nice to have a playdate in the holidays - and she texted about it - so here i am hoping I don't wake up through the night like some gawky teenager before her first date - even though that is a bit like how I feel!! Besides feeling a bit ridiculous for feeling that way in the first place.

Sigh - I just don't know how Han will respond. I hope she enjoys the opportunity.
Then I am taking the twins to lunch with some people I worked with years ago - lovely conservative women who are very caring and fabulous Soc Sc teachers. There is a little part of me that feels like I am putting Hannah under the mircroscope - in their well meaning but cluelsess state I think they'll be 'watching' Han - not really understanding that she is not a 'poor little thing' and that I am in no way to be pitied because she is my daughter - in fact the opposite - I think they should envy me the opportunities she brings. Still - as I said they are nice women and I am probably being oversensative - cos they ahven't seen Hannah for years - it will be a day outside of my comfort zone. More cod liver oil Aunty Pat - hopefully this dose will be beneficial to everyone.