Wednesday, April 02, 2008
I took Hannah to the audiologist this morning - her hearing is worse than last time. Looks like ear tubes are a definite - her ENT was on leave - he is back next week so I have to ring first thing as the audiologist seemed to think that he would want to squeeze us in next Friday if he can. Doesn't sound good does it? When I got back to the car I cried. I feel like a goose - it is NOTHING like the AVSD repair - logically I know that but I have this numb, sickening feeling of dread, it is out of all proportion to what will probably happen to Han but there it is... I can't help it. All I can see is her lying on the bed in PICU after last time - looking so bloated and so glassy eyed, totally unlike my beautiful baby. I never took photoes - I couldn't bear it - now I wish I had because maybe I could have de sensatised myself to the experience a bit or at least put it in perspective!!
I have been looking up Dr Google - and the forums - one mum described the procedure as a 'speed bump' in her day. Oh well - needs must - so let's get ready to JUMP!