Tuesday, August 04, 2009
The bumpy Road
Well DH rang the 'school of choice' yesterday - we are anxious to hear how the enrolment process is going. After speaking with the principal he wasn't especially reassured - we have arranged a meeting - to discuss 'how to go forward' and what is in Han's 'best interests.' DH is getting pretty antsy - as he says - we rarely have a conversation where we come away feeling positive about things - so why are we persevering?
I don't know. I feel like I have been handing over Han for them to 'assess' like a bug under the microscope I thought that by observing her they might see what we see - Hannah's amazing resilience, her determination, her potential - and the reason why we want her in a mainstream class. I am not sure that is what is happening though - it feels as if she is a bug under the microscope and the face peering at her is scrunched up in distaste, fear and apprehension. I hate that that is what I have done to Hannah - that I have put her in that situation. She deserves so much more.
So where are we now on the bumpy road to school ... just bumping along through the long, stormy night I feel, wondering if we'll ever get there.
In other matters life is going pretty well. Hannah is really improving in her speech although much of what she says can be unclear cos she leaves of the beginning or end of her words - she is saying a number of words more clearly. She has had a nasty ear infection so unfortunately hasn't been able to go swimming which she loves - I'll let her go to lessons today and see how she goes.
We have been toying with the idea of a family holiday - somewhere a bit special but not outrageously expensive - we even toyed with New York for a while cos airfares are so cheap at the moment - but accomodation and other expenses quashed that idea. Also it will be the anniversary of Mum's death soon and I'd like to be in Brisbane with Dad as close to that date as I can. Maybe in January? Who knows...